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October 2, Sat
+ San Diego Film Festival
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04:28 PM
I only had an Intro to Computing in the Arts discussion session in the morning yesterday, so I was done with class by noon. I bought a pack of 50 DVD-Rs for $20 at the vender fair on campus. I had to take the bus home yesterday 'cause Jen left for home right after her class for the weekend, and Kyle was gonna stay at the school after his class to play some basketball. The bus ride wasn't that bad; it was only like 40 mins long, but the walk from the bus-stop to my apartment was pretty bad. It was almost another 40 mins. Luckily I had my iPod with me.
When I was home I kinda went through the stuff I got from the Q-Camp, and I saw that there's this San Diego Film Festival going on, and that there're 3 independent gay films featuring in the festival. One of them, called Sugar was playing last night at an independent film theater in downtown San Diego, so I called up Dan to see if he wanna go. Well, he was free last night, so I ordered the tickets online. He came pick me up and we drove to the Old Town trolley station, and took the trolley to downtown 'cause we didn't wanna deal with the traffic and finding parking in the city. The movie wasn't until 7:45pm but we got to downtown an hour early to pick up our tickets. I bought an issue of XY magazine and then we went to get pizza for dinner before the movie.
The film was okay... totally not what I've expected. There were LOTS of people there; like the entire theater was packed, mostly with gay couples. It was nice seeing that many gay couples though 'cause it kinda shows that gay people DO have a future.
Anyway, after the movie, we head back to my place, and I lend Dan some of my gay movies and documentaries 'cause Sugar was the gay film he has seen and it wasn't that good really, so I want him to watch the good stuff!! We talked for a while too about all kinds of stuff from tricky interview questions to my website experience. I feel bad for him though 'cause I talked alot and I was like the one who talked most of the time, but ya.
There is this LGBTQIA Non-Sexist Dance going on on campus tonight. They've two of these dances a quarter, and according to what I heard, they're supposely the best dances on campus! So, of course I'll have to go check it out. This late afternoon Dan and I are gonna go do some shopping, and then we're gonna go get dinner before the dance. This is gonna be the first gay dance I've ever been to too, so I'm really excited and of course... nervous.
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October 3, Sun
+ LGBTQIA Non-Sexist Dance
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08:15 PM
So yesterday afternoon I went shopping with Dan. He picked me up at around 4:30pm. He was supposed to shop for a pair of running shoes, but we couldn't find one so ya. I spent a $100 at Abercrombie though. I got a zip-up sweatshirt for $50, a polo-shirt for $20, and a long-sleeves shirt for $25. I mean, I really liked the zip-up sweatshirt and the long-sleeves shirt, and the polo was on sale, so I guess it was worth...
We had dinner at Carl's Jr, and headed over to school at around 10pm. The LGBTQIA Non-Sexist Dance started at 9pm, but we didn't wanna be those losers that got there real early. Anyway, the dance was fun. There were ALOT more people that I've expected, which is good 'cause there were alot more hot/cute guys. Even though the dance was hosted on campus by the UCSD LGBTQIA, there were alot of people from the San Diego area attended. I danced with Dan and Michael the whole night. And you know what? I got hit on during the dance!! Well, not long after we first started, there was this black guy started lap-dancing with me, but the thing was I've no fuckin' idea how to dance with him, so like after a couple of minutes the guy just left. What a bummer!! Oh well, he's not my type anyway... The dance was pretty wild. There were a few shirtless guys, and I saw quite a few guys making out on the dance floor. It was quite a scene, but it was depressing at the same time though, like you see all these couples and other guys hooking up, and then you start thinking about being single sucks!! Raf was there too, he was dancing by himself at first, and I was kinda tempted to ask him to dance with us... but then of course, being the shy, lack of self confidence, low self-esteem guy I'm, I didn't... and then a bit later I saw him dancing with this guy called Wil I met from the LGBTQIA meetings. Then I kinda hated myself for not asking earlier... oh well... For some reasons, I wished Jen was there though. The dance ended at 1am. When we were walking out of the dance, people were handing out condoms and I got a pack too. There were like 4 flavored condoms and a pack of lubricant. The ones I got were banana flavor, but I wish I could trade in for a strawberry-flavored pack. Dan took me home after the dance, but I didn't go to bed until 5am this morning though... I just didn't feel like sleeping. I don't know, I guess I was in my down mood or something.
I woke up at 12:30pm this morning (or should I say this afternoon?) and I did my laundry. Didn't really do anything else. I've lots of schoolwork I need to do though... like I've my first Intro to 2D Art-Making assignment due Tuesday, and a short response paper which I suppose to post online due mid-night Monday for Intro to Media. Well, I better get started with my homework, at least that will keep me occupied from thinking about stupid things.
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October 5, Tue
+ Lying to Kyle
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06:29 PM
Yesterday I only had a lecture at night but I got a ride to school with Kyle in the morning. I spent most of the day catching up with my readings and got done with my response paper. Then I went to class, and after the class I went to the LGBTQIA bonfire. We had a brief meeting right before we headed over to La Jolla Shores. The bonfire was alright; met a couple people there. Raf was there too, but we only talked briefly; nothing too exciting. Dan gave me a ride home at around 10:30pm, and I was really tired. Perhaps it was because I haven't had much sleep lately.
Anyway, I was suppose to ride home with Kyle last night when he got out of class at 8pm. But of course the bonfire didn't end at 8pm, so I had to lie to him about what I was doing and why I didn't need a ride home with him. Basically I just told him I had a "group project" to do, and one of the people in the group was gonna give me a ride and such. Sometimes I feel bad about lying to him, but then as Jen put it, "if he's cool with me being gay to begin with, then we wouldn't even have to go through all these troubles making up lies." She basically just put the blame on him. I mean, I've been lying to almost everyone my entire life so far, I don't know why I feel the guilt now but not before... Perhaps before I lied because I had to, and it was just so natural to lie for "survival purposes". You know, I don't wanna get beated up or murdered by some anti-gay people. But now, I feel the need to be true to myself (which I always have been to myself, just not to other people); I feel the need to not deny who I am... Of course, Jen is a big part of this. Having a supportive roommate and friend is always one of the key elements when someone is coming out.
I didn't go to bed until pretty late last night... or should I say that I went to bed not too late but I didn't fall sleep until pretty late? I got in bed at 12:30am, and Kyle went to the bathroom like twice in the middle of the night. Apparently he had an upset stomach from the half a gallon of almost-expired milk he drank last night. Jen and I were talking about it and laughing our heads off this morning on the school shuttle, and of course Kyle wasn't too happy about that (of course not literally, we all have a sense of humor). I didn't have class 'til 1:30pm today but I needed to come early to get my first 2D Art-Making project done, which is supposely a self-portrait or whatever. I did it entirely on the computer with Photoshop. It wasn't too bad but it was nothing close to great. Anyway, I need to go to my Media class now, later.
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October 6, Wed
+ Start Taking Care of Myself
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01:02 PM
Yesterday morning when I was working on my first 2D Art-Making project on my laptop in the library, Kyle was right beside me and he said "Hey, you might wanna put some pictures of girls in there, if not the people in your class are gonna think that you're gay." That was exactly what he said and my response was "okay..." See, that's what we as gay people have to go through if we're still in the fucking closet. Perhaps someday I'll let him know. Jen said we should wait and see... I agree with her.
Last night in my Media class, we watched an old, black & white, foreign film called Persona, which I'll have to say is one fucked up film. It was so confusing and I guess that was the point of the film. I fell sleep for 20 mins during the film 'cause it was so boring... Well, mainly because I was so tired.
I think I know why I've been kinda down lately. I think the main reason is that I haven't had much sleep these few days. Going to bed at around 1-2am and waking up at 7-8am just doesn't do it for me. I'm usually one of those people who have 8-10 hours of sleep a day. Since I don't have a car, I always just ride to school with my roommates and since I've night classes I stay at school for a pretty long time everyday. Without enough sleep, I'm always tired during the day, and I don't feel like cooking when I get home. See, that just doesn't work. School has only started for 2 weeks and I'm already getting tired of it and all stressed out... I'm not even taking any hard classes at all. I need to change that and start taking care of myself again, and start enjoying my life in San Diego.
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October 8, Fri
+ Stop Tripping! Just Chill!
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03:27 PM
[RESPONSE] A few people have asked me about the empty Polariod in my first 2D Art-Making project, so I thought I would explain it on here. It was suppose to be a self-expression project, which we would make a piece to represent or express ourselves. So I made mine with a bunch of photographs to represent various memories I had and things I like. I put them in the Polariods somewhat randomly, then I used four pictures to represent the four places I'm living in and had lived in - Hong Kong, Washington, Santa Cruz, and San Diego. I put them in order from left to right in the photo negative (you can also think of it as a movie or something). Now comes the empty Polariod on top of everything towards the right hand side. Since my life still keeps going and my memories don't stop here, I used an empty Polariod to represent my future - a photo that has yet to be taken. It's also on top of everything 'cause it's suppose to be the newest memory. Anyway, thanks so much for all the compliements on the piece! [/RESPONSE]
Things have been getting a bit better these last two days. Perhaps it's not really things getting better, but more like how my perspective of things has changed. Like I've always been kinda upset over the fact that I've never been truly in love with someone before, and I was trying so hard to find a boyfriend. All those LGBT-related events and meetings I've been to, my intention was to get a boyfriend, and that's just not right. Last night when I was talking to Jon (my friend who's from Hong Kong but currently living in Chicago), I've realized that I've valued being in love way too much; I've somehow set that as my priority, and that's just wrong. There are alot more things to life than having a boyfriend; there are alot more things going on in life other than being in love. So ya, my intention of going to those events should be meeting more friends and be socialized. Sometimes I'm amused how you can be way happier just by changing your perspective, and I think alot of time that's the case. It's all about how you look at things and how you interpret them. Of course, I've been trying to take care of myself again as well; eating all three meals regularly and getting a tiny bit more sleep. I've also started to be more layback about school; started giving myself some time for the things I enjoyed doing. And it really helps when I'm not all tight-up and stressed out about school!! Well, as Kyle always says "Stop tripping! Just chill, dude!"
Anyway, I got some time between my two classes yesterday afternoon, and instead of keeping up with my reading for classes like usual, I did a drawing of a half-naked guy. I haven't drawn for so long, and it just feels great taking some time to draw again. Everytime when I draw, I get so concentrated on what I'm doing that I hardly notice what happen around me and how much time has passed by. It's just great how I can get so focused on a task. I think I'm gonna submit the drawing to Outspoken (a local literary magazine by queer youth). Maybe I'll put it up once I get it scanned somehow.
Last night in my Computing in the Arts class, we had like 3 guest-speakers. I thought it was gonna be good, but no... it was so boring. I thought they were gonna have someone famous in the industry to speak to us, but no they found these people doing weird projects that're totally unrelated to what we're studying right now. I've absolutely no idea what the heck their projects are about... so I don't know what was the point.
After the class I went to the QPOC meeting once again. It's getting better. At least my perspective has changed and we're starting to know the people there. They've a tee-shirt raffle at the end, and I was lucky and I got one!! Yeah, but the smallest size there was men size small, and it's still a bit loose on me. This girl who is a principal member said she would get me a boy size one next time, so I'm excited!! :D Now I can start wearing my QPOC tee-shirt and be proud. LOL
Tonight the LGBTQIA is having a trip to Hillcrest, which is the gay community in San Diego. Even though me and Dan have gone there two weeks ago to check it out already, we're still gonna go tonight, because last time we didn't really know where to go and it was during the afternoon and there wasn't much going on. Tonight should be fun. I hope a lot of people are going. We'll see how it turns out.
[ADDED 04:14 PM PST] Almost forgot to mention, I got a digital camera!! It's a Sony Cybershot DSC-T1, and I got it brand new on eBay for $413. The camera was only $395, but I needed to pay $15 for UPS shipping and $3 insurance. It is an okay deal since the retail price is $500 plus tax (which is another $40), so I saved myself like more than $100 if you think of it that way. :p Anyway, I won the auction on Monday and the camera got here last night, which was pretty quick! I've yet to actually try it out, but since I don't have a camera case and I definitely don't wanna scratch it, so I'm still debating over should I bring it tonight or not.
03:56 PM
The trip to Hillcrest last night was fun. At least I had a great time. Dan came and picked me up at 4:30pm and then we headed to the LGBT Resource Center at school where we were suppose to meet up at 5:30pm. There weren't too many people showed up; there were only about 12 people, and most of them are the principal members of LGBTQIA, but I kinda like it that way 'cause then you gotta talk to everyone and bond with them. We took the city shuttle from campus to Hillcrest, then we walked to the Hillcrest Youth Center first, where I submitted the drawing I did on Thursday for the next issue of Outspoken. After that we just kinda walked around and explored the main streets of Hillcrest. I bought these two buttons at this gay-store called Rainbow Road. I got one with "Straight But Not Narrow" written on it for Jen as a souvenir, and I got one that said "Fight AIDS! Not People With AIDS" for myself 'cause I wanted something subtle; like something that when people glance through it they won't know what it's really about, but when they read it then they'll get the message. But all the other ones they had there were all too obvious with rainbow colors on them, and the "Fight AIDS" one was the only subtle one I could find, so ya. Anyway, after all the exploring we had dinner at a Thai restaurant, and we just headed back right after that. On the way walking back to our cars, we saw these people handing out condoms. They were the same people handing out condoms after the LGBT dance the other night. Last time I only got a banana flavored pack, so this time I asked for a strawberry flavored one. Yeah!!
Well, Dan gave me a ride home afterward. I just wanna thank him on here 'cause I know he reads my blog. I really appreciate that he's giving me rides to and back from all those LGBT-related events. I don't think I would be able to go to too many of them if not for him. So ya!! I owe him a bunch!!
After I got back last night I watched Saved! Jen has bought the DVD like last week but I never got a chance to watch it. It was such a great movie though... It really makes people think about their Christianity and question those ridiculous beliefs they just blindly followed. The movie has also successfully pointed out the hypocrisy of many so-called "Christians". True Christians are all about accepting and not judging other people. Personally I think Saved! is a great movie with an important message behind it, and that everyone should watch it. The movie makes people think about their beliefs and yet not denying or attacking the religion itself. "So everything that doesn't fit into some stupid idea of WHAT YOU THINK God wants, you just try to hide or fix or get rid of?" "No one fits in 100% of the time. Not even YOU!" "Why would God make us all so different if he wanted us to be the same?" Just give it a thought.
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October 11, Mon
+ National Coming Out Day
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04:11 PM
Saturday afternoon Jen and I went shopping again. I didn't get anything but Jen got a really nice jean-jacket. After that we went to Kyle's old roommate's place 'cause they were having a small get-together party. It was alright; met a few people there. I didn't drink too much though; just got a buzz. Jen and I left early 'cause this guy was trying to hit on her or something, and she was getting uncomfortable or something. Before we went home, we went to this sex store around where we live and checked out some stuff there. Jen got some lubricant and that's all. After that we went to a couple movie-rental places. I rented Angels in America 'cause I heard that it's really good and I've been meaning to watch it but never had the chance to. I also rented Rear Window, so that I can storyboard a scene for my first project for Media class.
HAPPY NATIONAL COMING OUT DAY! Today is HRC's National Coming Out Day, and the LGBTQIA of my school has this open-mic thing in the middle of the student center for anyone who wanna come out or tell their coming-out stories to go up and talk. I was there for a little bit during lunch time to show my support, even though I didn't go up and talk. [Excuse: You know I'm new to this school, and I'm just not ready to come out to everyone yet...] [The Truth: I just don't have the fucking balls to annouce to the world that I'm gay, okay?] Well, at least I was there to show my support, and I talked to the people from LGBTQIA at the table. Anyway, to celebrate this day and to honor and support those who did come out today, I'll come out on here: Yes I like guys, and yes I'm GAY, and no it's not a phrase, and no it's not a choice, and yes I want people to like me for who I am, and yes I'm proud of it!! That feels much better. For everyone who did come out today, I'm very proud of you; for those who hasn't come out yet, you're not alone and don't be afraid to be yourself!
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October 14, Thu
+ Fuck Bush!
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04:42 PM
Tuesday night in my Media class we watched Peeping Tom, which is one pretty weird, old British movie. Then on Wednesday morning our TA showed us The Piano Teacher, which is another messed up film, during our discussion session. The Piano Teacher is a recent French movie came out about 3 years ago. It is based on a book, and I heard that the author of that book just won the Nobel Literature Prize this year. The story is really fucked up though. You guys will have to watch it to know what I mean, but I won't recommend watching it since it's so fucked up!! Am I contradicting myself?
Oh anyway... have you guys watched the last presidential debate last night? Well, after watching it, all I've to say is FUCK BUSH!! That mother-fuckin' idiot makes me so mad!! When asked if he thinks that homosexuality is a choice, his answer was "I don't know. But we need to defend the institution of marriage! I'm proposing a constitutional amendment to protect marriage!" What kinda answer is that!? Especially coming out of the mouth of the President!? First of all, go fuckin' do some research if you don't know whether homosexuality is a choice or not, or just simply go up to a gay person and ask!? Second of all, whether it's a choice or not, it doesn't give you the right to discriminate against a certain group of citizens! Yes, marriage might be a religious institution, but it's not when it involved all the federal rights and legal issues. If you wanna protect your "marriage", fine, fuckin' change the name to civil union for everyone on the legal level; disassociating it from the religious aspect! Separation of church and state, ever heard of that? And don't you dare use God's words to back up your so-called "argument"! True Christians don't judge others; they LOVE their neighbours! Don't fuckin' call yourself a Christian when you're bombing the heck out of other countries and killing massive amount of innocent people.
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October 18, Mon
+ Version Eighteen
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03:00 AM
Okay, I've been working on version eighteen this entire weekend. I started on Friday afternoon and got the layout down Saturday afternoon... However, the actually setting up time was much longer than I could've expected. As you might've noticed already, I've finally moved dabs onto my own domain clemish.com. I've gotten the domain for more than 2 weeks but I just didn't have the time to set it up. Since I've been wanting to make a new layout for dabs, and not willing to neglect the domain any longer, I decided to move my blog onto it. I thought It would also be a great chance for me to switch from Greymatter to MovableType, since I've heard quite a few good things about MovableType and it seems a bit more popular and more advanced than Greymatter. So, after getting the layout done, I started transferring the files and setting up MovableType this morning. However, it took WAY longer that I thought it would and I ended up spending the entire day trying to import my old entries and figure out all the templates. Besides the new blogging system, I've also embedded a new counter/statistic thing, which I'm very pleased with. Most of the things should be working but there are still a few sections I didn't get to finish. I'm planning to redo all the fanlisting, clique, and affiliate pages with some PHP scripts. Hopefully I'll get those done soon. We'll see how that goes.
Anyway, let's talk about the new version. First of all, I'll have to say that this layout is quite meaningful to me, since it reflects what's actually going on in my life lately. Ever since I moved here to San Diego, I've joined a couple LGBT-related student associations at school and been trying to be true to myself. I think this layout express that quite well. In addition, as the 2004 Presidential Election day getting closer, I really want people to get involved and stand up for what they believe! People need to get informed and educate themselves about what's going on, and VOTE! So this is somewhat a political layout concerning that.
This is also a 3-year anniversary layout for dabs. On the 25th of this month, dabs will be celebrating its 3 yo birthday! How exciting!! So, I hope you guys like it, and please let me know what do you think about it. The phrases on the splash page are from a song called "No Matter What" by Boyzone, which I think fit the topic of this layout quite well. Complete lyrics can be found here...
BOYZONE - NO MATTER WHAT
No matter what they tell us, no matter what they do, no matter what they teach us, what we believe is true. No matter what they call us,
however they attack, no matter where they take us, we'll find our own way back. I can't deny what I believe; I can't be what I'm not. I know I'll love forever, I know no matter what. If only tears were laughter, if only night was day, if only prayers were answered, then we would hear God say: I will keep you safe and strong, and shelter from the storm. No matter where it's barren, a dream is being born. No matter who they follow, no matter where they lead, no matter how they judge us, I'll be everyone you need. No matter if the sun don't shine, or if the skies aren't blue, no matter what the ending, my life began with you. I know this love's forever, that's all that matters now, no matter what.
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October 20, Wed
+ Sleepless Walking Zombie
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01:02 AM
Alright, I'm really tired right now. I had like a total of 7 hours of sleep in the past 3 days. Yes, you heard me right. First, I worked on my current layout until 4am and had to wake up at 8am on Monday. Then I pulled an all-nighter working on this 2D Art-Making project that was due yesterday, which took me forever 'cause I created everything on it except the pictures of the girl face and the big arm in the background. I'm pretty satisfied with it. I created the entire "advertisment" on Photoshop, and think about how much time it took me just to make that supposely futuristic cellphone look 3D-ish and realistic, then you'll know why it literally took me ALL night. And then last night I was working on this first project for my Computing in the Arts class. I like it; I'm not like extremely happy with it, but it'll have to do since I definitely can't go for another night. Yesterday I was either high on caffine or dead tired that I could fell sleep walking. So if I pulled another all-nighter, I would probably be ended up in a hospital... I finished it up and went to bed at 5am this morning and woke up at 8am; 3 hours is better than none at all. Well, at least I'm done with all my schoolwork for this week. More coming next week but I sure have learned my lesson and won't let this happen again. Sometimes I kind of enjoyed being tired or sleepy during the day though, because when I'm in that state, I don't give a shit about what other people think. Like usually I'm pretty conscious about what I'm wearing and how would people look at me; I just care too much about what others think of me. But I become this carefree person when I'm tired or don't have enough sleep. No more matching up clothes and pants; no more fixing my hairs, etc. Now isn't that nice?
Alright, let me give you guys a recap of my life besides school over this last weekend. I went to the LGBTQIA "Family Dinner" potluck on Saturday. It was alright; not too many people went. Confirmed that Raf (the guy in LGBTQIA who I think is hot) and Wil (the guy I met in Q-Camp) are together, which means my chance is gone, well... there wasn't much hope to begin with anyway. Afterward, Dan and I went to Starbucks before he drove me back, and he kinda asked me out. He asked if I was interesed in a relationship and I said no, not really... Well, he's a nice guy and everything, but I just think of him as a friend; nothing more.
Anyway, thank you all so much for commenting on my new layout! I really do appreciate that. I'll definitely try to get the rest of the site up as soon as I get the time to do so. Keep checking back for more updates. Thanks again and take care, pals!
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October 25, Mon
+ San Diego Asian Film Festival
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01:25 AM
Sorry for not posting for a few days. I've been addicted to eBay these past few days. Well, it all began last Thursday, when I suddenly got the urge to get an iBook. Well, the laptop I've now is almost 3 year old and I kind of want to get a new computer. And since I'm gonna be doing alot of design and media work for school, and all my TAs have Mac laptops, I thought I might as well get a Mac instead of a PC. So I started looking online for more information, and at first I thought I would get an iBook 'cause they're cheaper in general, but then I've decided I want a PowerBook instead 'cause that would probably last me longer before I'll have to upgrade again. So, that's why I've been on eBay these past few days trying to get a decent one with a lower price. Currently I'm debating over should I get a latest G4 model with over 1Ghz CPU for around $1300 or an older model with only a G4 876MHz CPU for around $900. I want to get a newer model because it has a better upgrade capability and it probably won't be outdated too soon, but then again it's a $400 difference. I'm having a really hard time deciding, so throw in your 2 cents and let me know what you think.
Anyway, this weekend passed by without getting much done. Have been getting quite a bit of sleep though, which is a good thing since I defintiely needed it. Friday I took a 4 hour nap, so I stayed up 'til 4am watching Halloween with Kyle. He needs to write a paper on it for his film class and didn't want to watch it by himself 'cause according to him it was really scary. And since I hadn't seen it before, I watched it with him. It was alright; a pretty good movie considering how old it's, and kinda scary as well. We're planning on watching the 2nd one this coming weekend, we'll see. I went to the 5th San Diego Asian Film Festival this Saturday night with Dan, and we watched Queer Shorts: Unzipped, which is a collection of short LGBT-related films. They were really throught-provoking and brought up a lot of issues relating to queer Asians, who are the double minorities in this predominantly white culture and society.
Yesterday I made this Straylight Run wallpaper for Kyle 'cause he's like in love with the band (especially the girl in it) now; he has been listening to their new CD like non-stop these past weeks. He asked if I could make him a wallpaper 'cause he couldn't find any good one on the internet, so this is what I came up with. I haven't made wallpaper for so long but he likes it alot so I'm glad. I've also re-opened the layout archive, so go check out my past layouts if you're interested. Anyway, it's getting late so I better go to bed now; got lots of schoolwork to catch up with tomorrow.
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October 27, Wed
+ San Diego Never Rains?
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01:54 PM
It starts raining again today. I hate it 'cause it feels so depressing. It rained like 4 days last week, and I thought it's not gonna rain for a while but then it starts again today! What's up with the whole "it never rains in San Diego" thing people had been telling me before I moved down? Liars! The worst part is I was stupid enough to actually believed it!
Anyway, I've gotten a Apple PowerBook off eBay after a few days of looking around. It's a 12" one with G4 1.25GHz processor, 256MB RAM, and 60GB harddisk. I got it used for $1280 including S/H. Well, it is less than a month old and comes with the 1 year Apple warranty, so it's basically new in my opinion. After the PowerBook, now I'm bidding on additional 512MB RAMs, various accessories such as keyboard and screen protectors, etc. Hm... Now I'm just praying for them to get here soon.
I can't believe I've just spent more than a thousand dollars in two days. I think I've a theory on why people enjoy shopping so much and buying stuff that they like. Well, it's like a supplementary happiness through materials. I think food, water, and sleep aren't the only essentials to the survival of a person; happiness is also one. When someone can't obtain it through love or friendship, which are the main sources of happiness, they get it from somewhere else such as materials or even the process of acquiring materials (also known as shopping). I think my theory is somewhat valid, but I think I've heard it somewhere before so maybe it isn't really my theory but whatever...
Straylight Run's music is really growing on me. I got the CD and ripped all the songs onto my iPod on Sunday, and I've been listening to it on repeat non-stop ever since. Every single song is good and catchy, especially the song "It's for the Best", which's lyrics I used in the wallpaper I made for Kyle. I highly recommend everyone who hasn't heard of the band to give them a try.
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October 29, Fri
+ Rainbow Bracelet
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12:58 PM
 As you all can see, as the election day drawing closer and closer, I've put up this "Vote for Kerry '04" banner on top to remind people to vote. I've also made this "Vote for Kerry '04" buddy icon, so please use it if you're a Kerry supporter. I mean, besides supporting Kerry and Edwards, the main purpose of these is to remind people to vote next Tuesday! I don't even care whether you're gonna vote for Kerry or not, just please go out and vote! There's nothing worse (not literally) than wasting your vote and not standing up for what you believe in. So go out on Nov 2nd, vote and be heard!
Last night at the QPOC meeting, this girl (I feel so bad for not remembering her name) made rainbow bracelets for everyone, and I got one too. I put it on and had been wearing it last night, but I had a swearshirt on so Kyle didn't notice it at all. Today I put it on right after my class this morning and I'm still wearing it. I think this is actually my first time displaying any indication of my sexuality in public. I mean, on one hand I was really proud of myself but on the other hand I was a bit worried about what people would think. But then again, who give a fuck what they think. I've been caring more about what others think than myself for so many years, and now it's time for me to start being true to myself! So yeah! Go rainbow bracelet! Well, there's always a first time for everything, right?
In my Computing and the Arts lecture this week, we were focusing on the topic of artificial intelligence, which is a subject that has always been fascinating to me. But there are so many issues involved that can't be easily resolved, like how you define intelligence, how can a computer/robot think and are we talking about the same kind of thinking as in human, as well as other social problems that might come with the popularization of artificial intelligence. Perhaps that's why I love and enjoyed movies like A.I and I, Robot. However, I don't think the idea that robots are gonna take over in the future would be like what is portrayed in the movies, but more in a sense of how we'd be so relied on the technologies that it might be impossible for us to continue functioning without computers or robots. I mean, just think about it, even nowadays, so many things are processed virtually such as bank account transactions, and everything is becoming digitalized; they're not even physical but a bunch of ones and zeros. We've already become highly relied on technologies within just a decade or two; now think about what could happen in 50 years? I'm not saying that there's anything wrong with it; I just want to point out that it's not so much as the robots taking over, but more like we handing over the control to them.
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