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May 1, Mon
+ Unofficial Job Offer
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08:38 PM
I called Melissa back and told her about the unlikelihood of me working right away. I let her know that my OPT work authorization is in progress and the soonest I can get it is in late July, which means I probably won't be able to work until then. To my surprise, she said Veoh would still like to offer me the position and wait until I can start, and that once she got some numbers straighten out with her boss, the company will extend me the official offer. I was sooo thrilled to hear that. I was so stressed out and frustrated all weekend about not being able to accept the job.
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May 10, Wed
+ Official Job Offer from Veoh
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04:45 PM
After a whole week of waiting to hear back from Veoh, I was getting worried again, so I called Melissa on Monday checking back on the update of my offer. To my delight, she told me the official offer package has been mailed last Friday, so I should be getting it very soon.
I missed the delivery yesterday but I knew the package is coming today 'cause UPS left a note. I got the offer letter today, literally a couple hours ago. I read over the letter and all the agreements, signed them and will be sure to send them off first thing tomorrow morning. They actually give me an offer that is more than I asked for, which being as inexperienced as I'm I don't know if that is always the case.
I'm so relieved from these past 3 weeks of job-searching stress. Honestly though, I think it went quite smoothly. I was just way too worried on my part. I'm just so happy these are all settled. The next thing I need to do is to get my driver license, get a car, wait for my pending OPT work authorization to get through, then I'll be all set to go.
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May 13, Sat
+ Sun God Festival
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04:06 PM
Since I didn't really go to Sun God last year, and this being my last year at UCSD, I didn't want to miss this last chance. So, Friday night, Dan, Kiet, and I got drunk first at my apartment before heading out to school at around 9 PM. I don't even remember when was the last time I got drunk. We met up with Chris and a few other friends on campus and went to the concert. We got there just in time to see My Chemical Romance got on stage. I heard No Use For A Name was there earlier, but I totally missed them. They're one of my favorite bands. Honestly, we didn't really do much the whole night, but just being drunk and not having to think about all these stress and dramas in life was totally worth it.
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May 17, Wed
+ Right Brain vs. Left Brain
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02:30 AM
Andy has been spending nights after nights at our apartment. He practically lives in our living room, while his own apartment is only a block away. It's starting to bug me, especially with his inconsideration. The first few days it was cool 'cause he's our guest, but it's not so cool when he starts demanding. It just ticked me off when he asked if he could move in. What upset me the most was Kiet's approval of it. The thought of moving out has came across my mind several times, but it was never a concrete idea and I wouldn't have wanted to. But Andy's "suggestion" pretty much made it definite, especially with Kiet's approval. It felt like a kick to the stomach for me. After that, I was quite determined to move out with Dan over the summer, until Kiet wrote me an email saying that it was all a misunderstanding and he thinks of me as a good roommate. I really don't know what to think. I responded with a semi-blaming email saying that it would be better for everyone: Andy needs a place to stay and obviously he's higher than me on Kiet's priority list; Robbie has been bugging me lately too, not that he wanted to be my apartment-mate to begin with; Kiet... saying out loud he needed more space from me just a little over a month ago. Call me sensitive, but actions speak louder than words and these are all the evidences I see. Misunderstanding, assumptions, add a spoonful of jealousy, we've a pot full of dramas. Perhaps I AM better off moving out, only if I can bring myself to. This sounds familiar. Right brain versus left brain; emotion versus logic; doing what I want versus doing what is right... sounds like what happened last summer, only a reversed situation. Seems like I'm all alone on this one, no one else can help me but myself.
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May 23, Tue
+ Driving Permit
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11:25 PM
I passed my written exam and got my driving permit last Friday. Only missed 2 questions out of 25. Quite proud of myself. So, I've been practicing with Chris. I learned to park and back out from a parking spot, and am able to drive on regular street with low to medium traffic. Chris said I should be able to take the driving exam in a month. We'll see and hopefully it all works out.
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May 28, Sun
+ Only Hurting Myself
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02:40 AM
There is something wrong with me. When things aren't going right, I stress myself out over them; when things are starting to get better, I dig up more shit to worry about. I just can't be happy with myself I guess. Always assuming too much; didn't know that I'm only hurting myself.
I need to stop drinking. I can be a happy drunk, but lately it just makes me more emotional. I haven't been able to go to sleep easily this past week. Have to stay up 'til 4 or 5 in the morning. Things are going great, and I need to be happy, but I just can't bring myself to be happy here. And I don't know what I want, or to be exact, don't know how to make myself not want what I want...
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